Fortunately smoking pot got me pretty high and stuck on stupid was usually good enough for me.

In my mind, regarding MJ, given the amounts of drugs, the variety of drugs, the sources, the revolving doctors, other peoples names on the prescriptions, his secrecy and isolation even to his own family members, siblings doing interventions on him, its all the signs and behaviors of a junkie.

The last fact that REALLY makes it impossible to romance any other rationalization, is that he MJ DIED THE DEATH OF A JUNKIE
from an overdose of drugs.

Hey, I love Pinot Noir wine, after all it is a tasty beverage. In moderation its a good thing. I cannot romance the notion that I can drink like normal people. No matter how many times I tried to moderate what I drank, how much I drank, what I mixed with alcohol, etc etc etc ad nauseum, I would eventually end up overdoing it, and anything could happen after the first drink, usually not good things. Fortunately I did not end up dead and never killed anyone else. I cannot romance any notions like “one day I will drink like a gentleman”, “hey I’m a really great guy I just have to control my drinking”, “oh I had a bad childhood if I just take some Prozac it’ll be alright”, or “hey at least I’m not as bad as so and so”….that’s all BS. I’m an alcoholic, I can’t drink, I will ruin my life or I’ll end up dead. Period.

Let us not romance the idea that MJ was sick, was a beautiful person, sold a million albums, loved children, “was special” did so much good, and therefore say that somehow that makes it okay that he died of an overdose, or lived the crazy F@@@ed up existence that he did because he was famous and no-one understands what that’s like. Howard Hughes was much the same way. A rich, famous reclusive junkie who ended up with nothing. MJ ABUSED HIS POWER NOTORIETY MONEY AND FAME TO GET PREFERENTIAL TREATMENT TO GET MORE DRUGS THEN A NORMAL PERSON WOULD HAVE BEEN PRESCRIBED, and as a result of his willful misconduct in the face of trained professionals, family members and advisors, died from a drug overdose caused by his own denial of the fact that he was an addict.

You can blame others, but in the end the blame is on Michael. Surely there was help available for his personal problems, and voices that warned him about his drug use or refused him access to powerful drugs. Surely he was aware of the great superstars (Janice Joplin) who had passed on before him. In the end you the addict have to admit you have a problem and ASK FOR HELP. Hopefully you get low enough to do that before you get high enough to die.

Its not personal. I don’t just want to drag him down ’cause he was famous and I want to see him fall. Its the truth. Jim Morrison was a junkie. John Belushi was a junkie. I’m a junkie in recovery. Saying anything else is just window dressing so lets not sugar coat it. Kapiche?

I think the fine line, Krista, is between being physically dependent or addicted. Although there may be clinical differences, the end result is just the same; the need for the drug(s.) I’m sorry your mother experienced what she did. I hope she is in comfort now.

I thought from your great post Kristan, the most telling line is: “…But they helped his pain..and it probably didn’t hurt that they happened to block out some of those feelings he didn’t want to feel. Like loneliness or sadness or being scared. We’ve all been there…”

That sentiment supports my theory that Michael was avoiding psychological or emotional issues. He needed the drugs for pain management. With it came the happy byproduct of being able to escape from painful events in his life. Either way to me, Michael Jackson ended up being a functional junkie, although it started out innocently enough. RIP Michael.

I’m sorry to hear your step-mother had to suffer the way she did, and I hope she has found solace where her soul now rests.

Personally, I don’t think your step-mother was a junkie, and based on what you’ve told me, here’s why:

1. She did not doctor shop
2. She did not get prescriptions filled in other people’s names
3. She did not keep large quantities of drugs that if mixed together could kill her, in her own home

Michael Jackson did all of those things.

Yes, there is an inevitable drug dependency that comes with the treatment of those suffering from cancer and other sources of extreme pain. However, there is also a manageable and safe way to administer said drug treatment. And it does not include doctor shopping and obtaining fraudulent prescriptions (famous or not, Michael Jackson still broke the law).

When that line – albeit a fine line – is crossed, the patient is no longer dependent on the drugs, they are addicted to them.

He was a man surrounded my millions who “loved him” yet he was the loneliest man on earth. It makes me so sad that he secluded himself as he did. The way he isolated himself and spend all of his time attempting to alleviate his pain. With respect to his drug dependence, whether due to continued use of meds for “pain management” or to fulfill a physical dependence created by the excessive use of meds for pain mgmt.(If anyone can follow that)

I have a question. A scenario with a question at the end. (A true story)

My step mother (May she rest in peace) she suffered from Terminal Cancer and she was in agony. I mean shear A G O N Y . She was on every pain med possible. She was on a strong IV drip. Delaudid I think. Plus a lot of Oxycontin and well, the medication names aren’t really the point here.. the point is that she was on seriously strong meds and she took them long enough that her body was literally dependent.

She NEEDED the medication for both her pain and to avoid the harsh sickness of withdrawal. (When you are in the pain from cancer ravaging your body as it travels throughout your body, withdrawal sickness is not something that should have to contend with) A lot of terminally ill patients die dependent on their meds. Does that mean that they died junkies?

Would people think my step mom was a junkie? She wasn’t a drug user outside of the cancer treatment. She was a well respected teacher of 32 yrs, very involved in theatre and dance. She was diagnosed, attempted treatment and suffered. Took loads of pain meds just so she could get out of her bed and even with all the meds she was still in so much pain. (It was so so sad and terrifying really.) She became dependent.

So, a junkie?? I tend to say no. Not a junkie. Not even sure “addict” would apply here. As it is completely different.

Physical dependence and addiction are two very distinct and DIFFERENT things. A certain degree of physical dependence is expected in all prolonged users of opiates. Physical dependence is when the body requires a certain amount of the drug to function comfortably. A certain degree of withdrawal symptoms MAY be present (but not always) if the use of the drug is stopped or “cut-back” in a dependent person. Physical dependence is simply the fact that a person will be very uncomfortable, and/or in more pain than normal, if the drug is taken away. However, this should NOT be confused with addiction.

Addiction is the byproduct of drug ABUSE and MISUSE. It is rarely found in licit (legal) users who use opiates for medical reasons, but very commonly found in abusers, misusers, and recreational (“for fun or pleasure”) opiate users. Addiction means that one can NOT physically, mentally, and/or emotionally function without the drug. The addicted individual will exhibit an extreme set of withdrawal symptoms, and will be unable to behave logically and rationally without the drug.

Sorry if this getting long..but getting back to the question. All of this boils down to this:

If one would agree that my step mom was not a “junkie” but simply (or not simply) dependent on her pain medication. What is the difference between Michael Jackson’s severe dependence (I am SURE there are levels of dependence..like just being dependent or moderately dependent or severely dependent because there are numerous pain meds involved at a high quantity and although all are administered according to Dr’s orders, there is an immense dependence that stopping the meds whether weaning or cutting back is going to lead to a much more severe withdrawal) and my step mother’s dependence. Both were taking a lot of medication. Both were in pain. (I am sure that is an understatement) Albeit they died from different causes and that’s a fact, but at the end of the day, neither of them were out to get high. After all how could you enjoy a buzz while you’re in utter agony? I doubt it.

All of this.. It’s just my opinion. I hope it can be respected. Although, I can appreciate questions and pointing out things I may have over looked. But I don’t know ..I mean.. Aside from Michael being a celeb..a high profile star. He was a man. A lonely man who loved and wanted to love and be loved back. Like any other person. He seemed to be way more sensitive than most.. but that is the way he was. He, like all of us, wanted to feel as though he mattered. I am sure he was constantly discovering how people were using him and deceiving him. It is tragic that he felt so alone. But it must have been hard to decipher who to trust and who was looking to cash-in in some way. Aside from his troubled childhood or lack thereof, he had inner demons that tormented him and frankly he was probably enjoying the numbing effects of these meds. As much as one can “enjoy” anything while you’re suffering. But they helped his pain..and it probably didn’t hurt that they happened to block out some of those feelings he didn’t want to feel. Like loneliness or sadness or being scared. We’ve all been there. But.. anyway..

As for Michael.. I do wish for him, peace.

May he rest in peace.

As expected, I have received some backlash after I announced that I will no longer approve comments for this post that have nothing to do with the actual, original, topic.

I stand by my decision.

You can call my decision “lame” all you want, and say that I’ve “sat back and slammed” you; that I’m “taking sides” or that I’m “biased” and that I’m “not worth” your time (psst…if I’m not worth your time why do you keep coming back?).

And you’re right, I could have edited out the “so called offensive parts” of the comments I said I wasn’t going to post, and posted them anyway, but I feel that would have only stoked the fire and fanned the flames. If I had done such an edit job, by the way, the comment would have gone from 836 words to 483 words – that’s about 350 words of offensive ranting; and that doesn’t include the 167 word tangent. Just sayin’.

- Hilary

After reading the two most recent comments I was sent on this post (both of which I did not, and will not approve), I have made the executive decision to no longer approve comments that have little or nothing to do with the topic of this post.

This post is about Michael Jackson’s lethal dependency on pain medication, and the mass amounts of drugs that were found in his home after he died. This post is not about whether or not MJ was in real pain, or how bad that pain was or wasn’t, or if any of us can ever really understand what he went through on a daily basis. This post is not about whether or not MJ was a caring and sensitive person, if he gave to charity, or if his kids were biologically his. And this post certainly is not about someone in Australia fighting with someone in the U.S. about things that really make no difference to anyone’s life but their own.

The comments have become repetitive – just people yelling back and forth at each other trying to prove their individual points. I feel as though the “conversation” or “debate” has turned into a vicious circle of name calling and inappropriate outbursts; I’m tired of it, and I am putting an end to it.

Now, if any of you have something to say that is ON TOPIC, then go right ahead and leave a comment, and I will share them. For the rest of you (and you know who you are), feel free to leave your comments, but I’ll be the only one reading them.

I realize this may seem a bit hypocritical of me, seeing how I choose to spend my time gossiping, but at least when I gossip I stay on topic.

I’m sorry if my decision offends you in any way, but it’s mine to make, and I am making it.

-Hilary

You are nothing but a hypocrite. You condemn others for condemning Michael but say no one has a right to condemn another. WTF?

You have no idea what it is I do in my life to say it’s nasty. Do you have proof to support your statement? No, you don’t other than your childish rants.

My “debate” with Sarah was her statements without facts to support them. Much like your post of anger. You don’t like what I or others have to say and say nasty things about us.

Yes, Michael gave the world great entertainment. It doesn’t change the fact he was a drug addict, for whatever reason he took massive drugs. He was still a drug addict, now dead.

Are you Sarah’s relative? She threatened with legal action and you’re threatening prettypois0n with bodily harm. Have at it. I’m sure your parents are proud of your behavior.

I’m sorry that you’re ill. I too have had 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my legs but unless I showed you my hospital records or scars, there’s no way of proving it on an internet blog. So touche` on that one.

No, I didn’t not make a comment of poor you, being out in the Bush. You stated: OMG YOUR EGOS!! EXCULDING MIKE AS HE HAS NOT SAID ANYTHING AGAINST ME AT THIS STAGE…

To which I responded: Does the Bush have enough space for your ego? Or are you just workin’ it so someone else can take a “shot” at ya?

(I am responding only in regards to the last post I made to you, not previous posts.) I certainly wasn’t pitying you. You don’t need my pity any more than I need yours.

I live in a city but I do see birds, raccoons, squirrels. When I go north, I can see elk, wild turkeys, snakes. I wasn’t faulting or slamming you for living in the Bush. In fact, there’s a part of me that finds it enviable (to a degree) but I’d probably croack with the heat, so kudos to you for surviving it with your illnesses.

As for you understanding Michael and his distrust for others (not knowing if they wanted/liked him for himself or because he was a celebrity) you really need to be more clear about your statements. The way you flew off with so many unsupported statements makes it very easy to legitimately question your statements. Was it so hard to say you knew him from charity work? Or were you protecting Michael from more media scrutiny?

I AM sorry you are in pain and have stated so in previous posts. I don’t understand what you mean about …AND SECOND IT WOULD NOT GET PAST OUR MEDICAL HISTORIES SCHEME. I don’t know what medical scheme you are trying to pull off. Or why.

Why couldn’t you be honest enough to say you ran a charity, instead of repeatedly saying you knew Michael without ever giving an explanation as to HOW you knew him? You avoided saying anything about it until very late in our “debate.” Like I said, it gives some credence to your statements that you knew Michael had you stated your charity work in the first place. And no, I never thought charity work is how you may have met. Michael did a lot of things, like seek numerous doctors or go shopping a lot so how in the world would anyone know how you and Michael may have met?

Your comment about Americans being vultures, you need to be more specific about who you are calling names. Only in America, “YOU LOT” is a very general statement and includes everyone, not just the media. Also, I have lived in America for decades and have felt free to speak my mind without fear of retaliation. We do have Freedom of Speech here.

As far as our legal system, well I don’t know what you can’t say due to it but I understand there are differences in legal systems with different countries or sovereignties. Too bad you aren’t free to speak your mind.

I can accept that you didn’t know all CAPS meant anger, so I apologize for slamming you on that one.

Good for you that you know you knew Michael. Isn’t that the most important part after all? As for me asking for proof of it, that’s what’s done on a blog. If you make a statement and someone asks for evidence to support your statement, it isn’t out of line as much as it’s being investigated or thorough. If I stated something I can’t support, then it’s fair for someone not to believe me. However, now that you’ve been more forthcoming with information, I can begin to understand where you might be coming from. Not that I believe everything you say, but I am willing to hear you out.

Out of sheer curiosity, are you above the age of 20 years?

Oh, and I do agree with you that there is more, much more to come of his death.

Again Sarah, it’s making statements without support that I question highly, no matter who states it. It helps to be articulate as well. I do thank you however, for using paragraphs in your last post. Thank you and good night. (Or g’day. )

AS FOR MY COMMENT ABOUT MOST AMERICANS BEING VULTURES, I AM MOSTLY TALKING ABOUT THE MEDIA! I SHOULD KNOW, I LIVED THERE FOR 4-5 YEARS AND WAS ALSO MARRIED TO ONE.

YES I MENTIONED ASSISTED SUICIDE,I BELIEVE FAR MORE THAN THIS, BUT, I CANT SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY DUE TO YOUR LEGAL SYSTEM, BUT THAT IS AS CLOSE AS I CAN STATE…

YOU ALSO MENTIONED THE FACT THAT I WAS BEING ANGRY WITH NOT STATING MY REASON FOR MY CAPS LOCKED…. TO BE UP-FRONT, I DID NOT KNOW THAT! AS I RARELY USE A P.C. IF YOU THOUGHT I WAS YELLING, I APOLOGIES, AS I DID NOT KNOW AND WHEN ONE OF YOU MENTIONED IT, I STATED THE REASON.
I HAVE ANSWERED MOST OF YOUR QUESTIONS, DUE TO OUR PRIVACY, THERE IS A LINE.YOU HAVE MENTIONED NUMEROUS TIMES FOR ME TO PROVE THINGS. AND, AS PREVIOUSLY STATED, IF I TOLD YOU THAT YOU HAD TO PROVE SOMETHING TO ME, IT WOULD BE OUT OF LINE.
I DO NOT CARE IF YOU BELIEVE ME OR NOT, I JUST DON’T CARE. BUT I WILL ALWAYS KNOW THAT I DID KNOW HIM…AND THAT THERE IS MORE TO COME WITH HIS DEATH..

You didn’t say you condoned the excessive amounts of drugs Michael needed but you IMPLIED it by stating he needed them because he was sick and in pain. If you don’t do anything to stop it, then you’re either condoning or supporting it. You understand why Michael needed all those drugs and it’s okay by you because he didn’t take it to get high, he took it because he body grew tolerant to the drugs and he needed more. Michael’s need for more drugs only ended with his death. And that’s okay by you because you understand. Did I get that right?

Since I’ve been thorough and labored over this one post, I’ve since read your ninth post, which was to MIKE, also with stuck CAPS. Funny even after a few posts, how you didn’t say your CAPS were stuck until it was pointed out to you. All CAPS in “Netiquette” means angry. I find it intriguing though, that MIKE with the stuck CAPS’s moniker is all in CAPS but our dear Sarah with the stuck CAPS, didn’t mention they were stuck until several posts and it was brought to her attention. HMMM…

Your post to MIKE, you say you’ve been “slammed and called names.” I still stand by all the posts I’ve made to you. I slammed you because you state things as factual but haven’t been able to support your statements other than your words. The charity volunteer turned close friendship can be more believable than you storming in here saying “I KNEW MICHAEL.” It’s your approach, Sarah; arrogant and condescending. “I KNOW BETTER THAN ANY OF YOU.” Right. Like that’s gonna win anyone over. Chit like that deserve to be shot.

Now you’re whining about getting taken a shot at because you knew Michael. Well gee…having just chronicled your posts, I can see why some would want to take shots at you. Awww, poor baby out in the Bush… Stop presenting yourself as a condescending a**hole and maybe I won’t want to take a shot at you. But it seems like you’re working on MIKE saying something against you at a later time. OMG YOUR EGOS!! EXCULDING MIKE AS HE HAS NOT SAID ANYTHING AGAINST ME AT THIS STAGE…

Does the Bush have enough space for your ego? Or are you just workin’ it so someone else can take a “shot” at ya?

Oooh, I see you’ve gone ballistic on prettypois0n with your 10th post on here. HOW MANY OF YOU CAN SAY THAT YOU HAVE BEEN OF HIS STATUS FOR OVER 40YEARS… JUST LET IT BE…

It seems to me YOU are the one that should let it be, Sarah. And what’s with the comparison bullchit? What kind of status have you been in for over 40 years?

Take heed to your own words, Sarah. JUST LET IT BE… or shut up about it.

I’m out of here until tonight. G’day all!

Your sixth post you state you knew Michael personally. … HOW I KNEW HIM IS PRIVATE AND VERY,VERY PERSONAL AND GIVEN WHAT HAS HAPPENED WITH THE MEDIA, AND ALL, THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY TO YOU, IS THAT I KNEW HIM, HIS ILLNESSES, THE PAIN, THE REASON FOR THE FAKE FOOTAGE OF THE SO CALLED REHEARSAL, THE REASON’S WHY THE MEDS WERE IN OTHER NAMES, WHY THE DEMEROL INJECTIONS, WHY THE OXYCONTIN, WHY THE ANESTHETIC DRIP, INTERNAL BLEEDING, AND THAT I LOVED HIM…

I’m still not convinced you knew Michael privately or personally, but hey…whatever floats your boat. I don’t have to believe you anymore than you have to believe me. But at least I can support my statements and you haven’t been able to support yours. Again Sarah, THAT is the very point you’re missing in our “debate.”

In that same post, you also say Michael was in bed with the children because of his illness. …ALL KINDS OF STORIES ABOUT HIM IN BED AND THE VISITING CHILDREN THERE AS WELL, NONE OF YOU KNEW THE REASON AS TO WHY HE WAS ON THE BED IN THE FIRST PLACE! HIS ILLNESSES

That’s plausible and until I learn and know more, it’s only your hard to believe words or opinion. (Will you please learn to break your posts into paragraphs? It’s hard enough you’re all in CAPS and to have no break in your words makes it harder, at least for me. Thanks.) As far as I’ve been able to learn YOU are the only one making that claim. To seek corroboration is not crazy or harsh but simply thorough. You make factual statements with no facts to support them, but you claim you’re being slammed and called names.

You also state: HE DID NOT WANT ANYONE TO SEE HIM THE WAY HE WAS. HE WOULD DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT ANYONE FROM KNOWING THE TRUTH

So you’re saying the Michael we saw was an illusion and he did what he did to hide the truth. That’s a very telling statement, Sarah. Whichever way you take it, Michael was hiding the truth whatever it was. I think it’s safe to say hiding or running from the truth cost Michael his life.

Your seventh post you say: … HIS EX NURSE QUIT BECAUSE SHE COULD NOT HANDLE HIS PLEE FOR PAIN MEDS.

That’s a clear sign to me that there’s a problem. His PLEA (correct spelling) for pain meds. Again, I believe Michael was in more than just physical pain. The scalp burn and numerous surgical procedures I think caused him pain even after the procedures. But did you notice Joe Jackson wasn’t mentioned in Michael’s will? It’s my thought that there’s Michael had unresolved issues with his father.

You’re eighth post is what this post of mine is responding to. I didn’t mention “tabloid.” This is part of my post: “I wouldn’t give a rat’s ass whether you knew him or not. All the posts you’ve made are only from your point of view, with nothing to support it. Only your words that you knew him. My posts have been made from my observations, reading, hearing news (not just the celebrity news shows) and from my own life experience. Check out TMZ, CNN, Fox News, Headline News, People Magazine and any of the numerous wed sites and you’ll find that they support what I’ve posted. You have provided NOTHING BUT ALL CAPS SAYING YOU KNEW MICHAEL, HE WAS IN PAIN AND SUFFERING, NUMEROUS ILLNESSES. I don’t argue he was in pain and had illnesses. I have a problem with someone/anyone stating something factual and having nothing to support it. Even if it weren’t you, Sarah, I’d have a problem with it. What don’t you understand about that statement?

Do you consider CNN, Fox News and Headline News to be tabloid? I can understand TMZ People Magazine being called tabloids, but that’s not to say there’s a grain of truth in their articles. I’ve also read MJ info on Reuters and the AP, and they have credible reputations. But if you consider them tabloids because you KNEW Michael, then so be it.

And, if my statements are “stale” then why do you keep responding to me?

Did you know others can send their condolences to “the family” via internet? I just wish you’d quit making yourself out to be some kind of wonderful because you state you KNEW MICHAEL, with nothing to back it up.

…to be continued…

PART I-

Stop projecting your pity on me, Sarah. I don’t need it.

You seem to forget how your posts first began on this thread, with your homage to Michael. It seemed pretty poetic until you got to this part: … YOUR HEART AND MINE WERE ALWAYS BEATING TOGETHER IN TIME AND ONLY EVER WANTED TO BE KIND. WE FELT THE SAME AS EACH OTHER, BUT NO ONE WOULD EVER UNDERSTAND THAT LOVE WHICH WE SHARED WAS PLAIN OLD FASHIONED CARING.WHAT NO ONE WAS EVER TOLD,HAS NOW BEEN LAID TO REST. BUT MORE THAN THAT, THAT THE WORLD DID NOT KNOW WAS OF YOUR ILLNESS YOU BATTLED, THAT WAS LIVING HELL! I KNOW OF ITS PAIN, TO THE POINT WHERE YOU CANT EVEN WALK,M.J MY MAN I HAVE THE SAME ILLNES AS YOU HAD, BUT NOW YOU ARE FREE OF ITS GRIPPING AGONY, I AM NOT THAT FAR AWAY,UNTIL I JOIN YOU. IT HAS TO GO.. MY FINAL WORDS TO YOU, I LOVE YOU, I FEEL YOU, I SENSE YOUR BEING AROUND AND EVERYTIME I HAVE TO REACH THE MEDS, WELL YOU ALREADY KNOW, WE BOTH HAD IT, YOU ARE FREE. R.I.P

You’re saying you have Michael’s illness and say you’re not that far away until you join him. Yet you feel sorry for me and say I’m the one making ludicrous statements? I dare you Sarah, to take our posts and show them to anyone else and let them decide who is ludicrous.

Your second post, you call Americans “vultures.” (This site you’re on is run by an American on American soil, so if you think we’re so bad, feel free to get off of it.) You threaten Hilary with legal action for calling MJ a junkie. Then you get goofy with this in your post: BUT HE WAS ALSO A VERY LOVING MAN, THAT WANTED TO BE LOVED, HELD,INTIMATE AND HE WANTED IT AS ANY MAN, A TWO WAY THING, TO TOUCH,KISS,HOLD ETC. PURE LOVE WAS MORE IMPORTANT AS HE KNEW TRUE LOVE WAS LOVE OF A MAN, NOT OF A PERFORMER. HE WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY HEART. AND IN A WAY, THE FACT THAT HE IS NOW PAIN FREE, I HAVE A LITTLE ENVEY.. BUT I WILL REJOIN HIM SOON, BUT NOT YET! SO IF YOU CANT SAY ANYTHING NICE , DONT SAY ANYTHING AT ALL. R.I.P HONEY

How do you know Michael wanted to be held, intimate, touched and loved? Did Michael tell you? Don’t you think it’s hypocritical of you to say if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all when you are the one threatening legal action and calling a nation of people “vultures?”

Now you’re saying you “knew every reason” for Michael’s demand for excessive meds. Did your scalp burn too? Have you had numerous surgeries, facial ones in particular? You give nothing to make me believe you knew Michael as you claim.

On your third post, you say: I CAN TELL YOU NOW, I KNOW A LOT MORE ABOUT MICHAEL THAN ANY OF YOU…. I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AND EVEN WHY…………………..LIKE I SAID, I KNEW HIM AND UNDERSTOOD HIM MORE THAN ANY OF YOU… SO FOR GOD SAKE, LET HIM BE….

You know Michael more than any of [us]? Does his family even know about you? His kids know you? Your arrogance and know-it-all attitude stinks and is very much unappreciated when you make statements like that and show nothing to support it. And THAT Sarah, is what you seem to be unable to grasp in this “debate” you and I have had on this thread.

Your fourth post is pretty crazy to me. And I’ve only provided excerpts on your posts but at least I’m showing you where you can find the info that supports my statements. Where’s yours? The few illnesses you say Michael had have been reported on television and on the internet, so get off your condescending plateau about not getting into that kind of “lower level media.” So being in the Bush or not is a moot point. I’d like to point out you are posting on a site from America with the word “gossip” in its name.

Your fifth post, you say you’re not projecting: NONE OF YOU UNDERSTAND DO YOU? I AM NOT PROJECTING MY ILLNESS. MY STATEMENT OF KNOWING MICHAEL, KNOWING WHAT HE TOOK, WHY HE TOOK IT,WHAT HE HAD, HOW IT AFFECTED HIM IS FIRST HAND KNOWLEDGE, NOT A BUNCH OF PROJECTED FEELINGS ON MY PART.

You know it first hand how? I also see this post is where you allude to the assisted suicide, however not very clearly. I’m sorry your keys are stuck but your blocks of incessant and unsupported words make it all easy to skip or forget your words.

… To be continues…